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I’ve gotten to a point where I’m at a loss of words. I don’t really know what to say to get my feelings across without sounding like an asshole. You know when you’re with someone, and everything is perfect but something happens and it makes everything just seem like it’s going downhill? Well that’s what’s going on. And I think the thing is distance. It’s hard. I’m sort of losing it. I like space, I think that’s why it’s been easier for me than some… but lately I feel more distant then close. Not really talking or seeing someone is probably the hardest thing possible. There is always a thought in the bak of my mind thinking someone else is butting in, or some kind of feeling it lost but then other times it’s all okay… especially when we are together. I’m just frustrated and confused. Wish this feeling would go away ):

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http://www.gofundme.com/23a0e0

Ever since I was little, my mom has been in and out of the hospital. She has had more surgeries than I could begin to count and is in constant pain at every second, of every day. My mom is 56 years old and has been through more than I feel any one person should have to handle.

Her issue started off as a small problem, she fell on her knee when she was chasing her pet dog around the table when she was in her early 30’s. Like most of us, she didn’t think it was a big deal and shrugged it off. Unbeknownst to her, somehow her kneecap got damaged and she had to get a knee replacement. Once the surgery was complete, she was told she had the infection RSD. She was informed by her doctor at the time that the knee had to be take out for good. He gave her two options: complete removal of her leg or fusion. Who wants to lose their leg? So, my mother chose fusion. Unfortunately that was the wrong choice, because the fusion of the knee completely took her body out of order. She now not only has problems with her legs but she has problems with her back, nerve damage, she’s fallen and broken multiple bones, multiple times. She is now wheel chair bound and has always been the type of person to keep going. She was the victim of malpractice as well in 1998 when a doctor she thought she trusted removed a bone from her back when he was suppose to just do a small biopsy. She did not find out it had occurred until 2 or 3 years later when there was nothing she could do about suing him.

My father is an electrician and because my Mom cannot work has been the single provider for our family for years. He works so hard, always is there for me and tries to help me in any way he can with money. My parents I can say with my entire heart are the the most genuine people I know. I am attending college, and want to be able to give back to them when I am able to but I am making this site to possibly raise some money to give to my Father and mother to help pay the bills because it has been such a rough road and keeps getting harder.

Any donations would be taken with the utmost appreciation. And they would be given directly to my parents.